There have been many days I'm thinking of writing this but then as usual some or other way it was getting delayed. Now, as two of my friends sent me their blog for my opinion, it kicked me to write. So I thought let's do it now gal!! But after so many days/months writing something in public domain (I generally maintain a diary which is just limited to me) seems like a new task to me, because it is like a totally new era of writing. What I usually write, in my diary, are the random thoughts which bothers me or float in my mind and I put it in papers to get rid of it.
I cant even recall since what age I'm writing, the only thing I can think now is that my dad told me ,when I was in standard 3rd or so, to write my daily routine, what all I do in a day, because he wanted me to find out my own mistakes (Not in writing of-course), for example he used to tell me that if u had a fight with any one in your school just include that also in your writing and read it next day you'll definitely realize your mistake in that fight and to my wonder I actually used to find many wrongs in my behavior. So the habit of writing continued. I'm always so thankful to my dad for this. For me this process has been a kind of self- realization. Initially (and regularly) I used to write in diaries keeping the language as in Hindi, Writing in Hindi was so much expressive and easy that I can't even tell you, I never use to think before writing even when I was 7 yr old because that was the language I used to think in. But now sometimes I need to find out the correct word for my particular feeling and it takes hell lot of time for me. Even today I find my mistakes (but most of the time it is grammatical as I write in English now) and even now it gives me the same kind of Goosebumps when I read my own writing after some days (because it's not regular process now) and same kind of words I say every time I read them "Ohh god How could I be so foolish?" Well guys there are few things that never change!!
Now people write in such a poetic and impressive way that I could never think of. They not only want to be perfect in writing but also want to get admired for that. They take their blog as a complicated process like first rough draft then spell check then sending to friends for correction or their opinion or so and then finally posting. No offense but I think let it be the way it is. If your friends have to give the opinion or make correction then it loses the originality of its own. I mean it's no more your work or your thinking. Others are imposing their thought as well so it's not only your mind's creation, which I think is bad. let their be as many mistakes as possible so what if it is grammatical or spellings but this is what exactly "you" feel, and that's what finally matters.
Before, people use to write for themselves so that they could feel light because that time writing was considered as talking to paper whereas now people write for others so that they can be appreciated, have comments, likes and many other things. The more "like" and "comment" you have the more successful your blog is. Gosh seems like a competition these days. Before it was like one to one now it has become one to many. I used to write my experiences and some routine so that I can read it later and find out where I was wrong or what wrong I did that time. But now people never write that way they're always and almost positive about themselves and negative about others. And then I get a comment saying "Ohh please Rashmi, what you are talking is called writing Diary not blogging" and I just say Hmm.. But I don’t find any difference in this! I think it is same. Blogging is "the" name given to e-diary according to me but contains the same. Still, I might be wrong and I don’t mind that.
What all I need to do is just keep the pace with time/change because everything changes with the time, and so has writing (diary).
